So I've been really bad with checking my facebook and xanga site for the past few months.  Not sure if I find it hard to reveal personal thoughts and feelings online or if it's that I just don't want to connect.  Maybe it's a mixture of both and the desire to just "veg" when it comes to the internet.  Even though the connection is via internet, facebook and xanga can surprisingly make people feel like they haven't lost touch, maybe even closer than they were before.  For good or bad, the internet really does keep people connected.

So I've realized, since the past few months have been filled with different highs and lows, intimate conversations with God and others, surprising decisions and not to mention busy days, my output is already spent and I have so little energy to share online.   But I do feel a little out of touch with some of you and hope I'll enter another season of xanga sharing and hearing what is going on in your lives.  And maybe after writing this, I will pick it up a little more, who knows!?

Have a great rest of the week! And for some of you who don't know, I'm going to the NKOTB concert tonight to relive old memories and be a little dorky! 

"Hope's power is that we have the energy and desire to go on living because we believe something better is coming.  That's the bottom line for the Christian: Something more is coming.  There is more to this world than meets the eye.  No matter what happenes to you or your family, no matter what disappointments you encounter, no matter what diagnosis the doctor gives you, even if the end result is physical death, there is still something more."
-Carol Kent

Sometimes we live in a bubble of things that are comfortable:  husbands who go to work and come home every day, our kids health and daily schedule, parents who become our best childcare, watching friends get married, have babies, buy homes, etc..  We have a wonderful life, I have a wonderful life.  But all these things can sometimes end up being my gods, the things in this world become my god.   And I have to surrender them and turn back to my first love.  I think I've been blessed with some disappointments because in this lifetime where there is much joy as there is sorrow, I am reminded of the eternal hope that is in my Father and in my Father alone.

Yes, I've been checking my facebook page more often these days...and sometimes I feel like I'm letting xanga down a bit.  :)  But I'm still here reading away and encouraged by all your posts. 

God is good to me and always wants us to experience breakthrough...in our relationship with Him and with others, even if it it's unnatural and risky.  As we stick with it, He will get us through to the other side.